Today was a good day. I didn’t do much during the day; I lazed around and spoke to Eric [who by the way is a really neat fellow to talk to, we never run out of things to talk about!] on yahoo all day. Our shelf in our garage broke down [since right before we left for cali] and everything toppled all over the place so we had that finally fixed today.

 

Today was my father’s birthday of course and I told him that I’d take him and the fambam to wherever he wanted for a night of family boding at a restaurant. We ended up going to red lobster, which was fine by me. The place was EMPTY. My father said it was due to the state of the economy and I’m really starting to find this pathetic how Bush has literally driven the American economy into the ground like this. [Sorry if you’re a bush lover anyone, but suck it, it’s my blog]. Anyhow, dinner was lovely and my father enjoyed a lot. I could tell that he really appreciated that I was selfless enough to pay for everything and I’m happy. My father deserves it. He really does. He’s the best husband & father in the worlddd. I would be so pleased if I could find a man half as hardworking, intelligent, and generous as my father. -tears up-

 

I initially was supposed to be going out with Matthew tonight and that got postponed due to my father’s birthday. We postponed until Friday. Not too sure if it’s a friend date or a romantic date…I’m sort of wishing for the former. O.o Honestly, I’m too confused about guys to even go there and I’m not even sure what the hell I’m doing right now. Everyone wants to be an asshole all of a sudden and it’s just like..WTF?! People who previously cared before, don’t. People who didn’t care before, do. [Btw, Kurt called me to hang out. See what I mean?] Only one person I can think of has been totally at a standstill with his emotions is obviously Jerod. And I know everyone rolled their eyes as they read that. But I have been thinking of him a lot. I’ve been thinking if I made the right decision not to date him anymore. I’d like to think that I have but I’m not sure. I’m just not finding anyone else that even cares the way that he has/does about me and it’s a bit frustrating. I don’t want to go backwards just because I feel like he’s the only one that will tolerate me and I surely don’t want to wait until it’s too late. So I’m kinda just floating now. I don’t want anyone right now..I really don’t and I suppose I’ll revisit this subject later. I want to concentrate on GOD, my family, and school. Exactly in that order. Gawd..fuck love problems, srsly. I don’t need a boyfriend!! [I secretly want one though..-sniffles-] I just hate this process I have to go through.

 

And so..Gabby is taking Capoeira and possibly kickboxing with me and I’m excited. I don’t get the chance to befriend many girlfriends for Lord knows what reason. I just don’t. So Gabrielle has been kinda the only one kinda..there. haha. She’s a great friend though. =)

 

Anddd…Nella is coming next month YAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I can’t wait to see my soulsister! <3