"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday."

Out of everything there was in that three hour long movie, that's what has stuck in my head the most. I have mixed feelings about the movie though, as I do with everything else. First of all, I'm so very jealous of that bird in the first place. -__- NOT ONLY..did she get one guy to fall in love with her..she got two. :| LUCKY. I don't think love is ever that innocent these days anymore and that's what I get annoyed with. People always think that you're out to hurt them or you'll do them wrong. I'm not saying that people shouldn't be aware of their surroundings or the people they associate with..but Idk..In the past, I've had a lot of trouble dealing with guys I've dated because they would not open up to me because they are scared that I am going to hurt them. AND IT PISSES ME OFF. First of all, it's just so silly. I am not the same damn female[s] you dated in the past so don't treat me like her or them. 
Well..that's not what this blog was initially set out to address. So let me steer it in the right direction. And now i've forgotten what I wanted this to be about. So I'll just type what I'm thinking. Let's begin with me saying: Michael, I'm crazy for you. -__- I like him too much. And it drives me nuts because I never know what he's thinking. I never know how he feels and so I feel like i'm threading softly. I think that's what drives me nuts out of it all. I never know if I should continue what I do because it makes him feel good or stop because it's annoying to him. I'm kind of lost in the fog of it all.

Okay..this blog has turned into crap..because i've forgotten what I was going to say. -________- I'll update on things in my life though.

-I want out of Chemistry. SO BADLY. I hate it now. And chemistry used to be one of my favourite subjects. I HATE THAT SHIT NOW. It's just become confusing and complex and i hate it so much. =[
-I have a thousand dollars worth of projects in the works now. Which is good. and about 1800 set to the side that i'll be working on in the next couple of months. I AM EXCITED.
-Christmas money isn't looking like an issue anymore. :D
-I can't wait for the holidays. I really and truly wish it will make me feel better than I am feeling at the moment. D: IT SHOULD THOUGH. Christmas always makes me happy! And so does thanksgiving..when I have family coming. BUT I DON'T. so =[ =[ =[
-I am in dire need of doing something FUN. i want to go to stone mountain SO badly. AND.AND.AND. the museum. =[
-I can't think of anything material that would make me happy for christmas. I don't think I want anything material. I know what I want though. I just know I won't ever get it. So it's really pointless in asking for it. FAIL. instead, I will get my joy from making others smile.

Mkay..I'm going back to work now. The end. :|


I want to curl up into a ball and make it all go away for just ONE day..-__- I think I may be stressed.