...And so..I just received news that my father will not be home from NY tonight! =[ I'm so freaking bummed..like srsly!! I was looking forward to seeing him!! And it's so funny because we've only been away from each other for like a couple of days now. But I miss him like MAD. And my father and I weren't even close up until this year. And I love it. I love how close we are and I wouldn't change it for the WORLD. I used to take what I had for granted. I have both a mother and father who actually want me around. Who aren't in a hurry to shove me out of their house like 99% of American parents. Who are happy just having a nice family dinner and spending quality family time. They make me so happy and I'm so thankful! And now, living on campus doesn't seem all that glitzy without my backbone being with me. I'm printing off the cancellation form myself tonight and turning it in on monday. If me moving out of this house will cause ruckus, I don't want to do it. I don't want to mess up what we have together. Teenagers as a whole are just ungrateful little shits. They want to get really far from their parents so they can party & sex. Well..at the moment, my parents are becoming more open to the dating scene and accepting the fact that I am indeed getting older. So screw dorm life..I don't need it. And I surely won't bitch about moving out to move into a 5 by 5 room with a matchbox sized bed. Plz. The more I asked myself what's the real reason I want to move out, the more I couldn't provide a solitary answer. I only kept on making excuses for moving out. It used to be: "I want to move out to be with Jerod" Why is it that whenever I think about what Jerod and I had.....I'm not sure. it sort of drew me away from my parents. I was a 16 year old trying to seclude myself from my parents. How stupid. Independent or not, I always want my parents and brother to be my best friends. I don't care who I'm dating, what I'm doing, where I'm living...They need to be in my life. Speaking of brother..We agreed we'd get a tatt of two A's intertwined when he turns 18. Which is going to be awesome. I'll be saving a spot either on my right or left shoulder blade for that tattoo. I'm not even sure if I want anything else tatted on me at the moment to be honest. Nothing else comes as close to important as the matching tattoo I will be getting with my brother. <3 I love him sooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH! I swear, I always want to be my brother's best friend no matter what. He's the best ever. And I love him. And I wouldn't trade him for the world. Even though I used to wish he was a girl when he was younger. Lolz. He's amazing. I'm already thinking of ways to surprise him this christmas! I love my baby bear! And the smile on his face is better than any gift in the whole world. Family love is the best love ever. And my eyes keep on filling with tears I'm so thankful for what I have.

In other news, I'm swamped in work. ;__; and Finals week is next week! Yayyyy! And california on fridayyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In other other news, I made a promise to myself to stop settling for less and stop stressing over if guys want to be stupid. For those of you who have been wondering, I haven't been talking to Dimitri like I have been. Which is funny because we used to talk almost every day and now that I did admit that I liked him. We don't talk at all. Which is fine. Shit happens. There are so many guys trying to "holler" right now and none of them are my type. AT ALL. I'm not dating party promoters, rappers, sneakerheads, pant-saggers, or any other stereotypical black guys. I'm just not. It's stupid. I figure if I wait around long enough, I'll bump into someone that is worth my time. He's simply not here yet! >_< I need to find him where ever he is.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY NEXT POINT!! Where do all the beautiful brothers on television come from?! I'm so serious. You never see guys that look like that in real life and in the rare occasion that you do, he's a biggest jackass that you ever did meet in your Godforesaken life. I am convinced that these handsome brown beauties come from some uncharted island located in some desolate area of the ocean. They probably prance around topless with their beautiful brown pecks glistening under the warm sunrays. -sigh- I will find that island. And I will take a few of them for myself. Like a buffet, and I'll load my damn plate. >_>

I'm about to look shittastic this week for I'm saving the cute stuff for cali! Lol!

Tomorrow we [Baby bear, Shellen, Jabari, And I] are going to the zoo and the aquarium! Bet your bottom dollar I'll have tons of photos up on flickr!! ;D

Okay..Spanish homework timeee!! xD <3

Otay otay..It's been quite a while and I have videos..I just haven't put them together..I have much to say, I'm just not sure if it'll all come out right now but I'll try. Let's start out with family. Family is going great! Shellen is here until we leave to go back home with him and it's been fun. [: Everyone has been one big happy family though..no complaints! ^_^ My tolerance is at zero right now though. And this is disregarding everything. School, boys, friends, foes, martians, celebs, etc. etc. I am not taking shit from anyone. And It's kind of frustrating me because like..I snapped at my brother, cousin and mother pretty quick today because I'm just so agitated. Maybe it's school. Okay..second order of business which would be school. I'm doing FABULOUS in school. I'm def keeping my three a's and if no one else will be proud of me..i'll be proud of my damn self! YAY. =] Everyone has been inquiring about Dimitri. "how are you two doing?" "have you even gotten to see each other?" "how are you two getting along?" To be honest? I don't know what the hell to think anymore. He's really busy and I don't even know if he's feeling me anymore. I would come right out and ask but like..WHEN do I even talk to him? neverrrr. smh. lol. I'll leave that subject open. I've been getting a lot of "I like you"/"I think you're an interesting person, lemme get to know you" from a lot of guys lately. And isn't it just fucking expected when I get attention from the guys I don't give two shits about but the ONE guy that I want to give my attention to, doesn't have the time of day for me? uhm..yea..how so very typically Aubree's Luck. With that said, I'm abstinent until I'm in a relationship. POINT BLANK. No exceptions, etc. etc. Ya! I'm serious this time. I absolutely DESPISE sexual contact with anyone I'm not in a relationship with. It makes me feel dirty and forms unnecessary feelings! I recently broke my phone [treo] and replaced it. I love the replacement even more than my original. lol. Uhm..Not too sure what else I can ramble on about but I'm SO sleepy..I'll be SURE to blog tomorrow! 

normally i'm not the type of person to even make new year's resolutions because i make my goals as i live my life, i don't need one day on a calendar to tell me when..but i'll list my goals i had prior to this new year's mania..


-maintain a good attitude whether or not what's going on in my life is great
-quit being so damn bratty about everything i have, i'm blessed with more than the average person
-stop settling for less than i expect in a guy
-remain abstinent until in a genuine relationship***
-good grades galore****
-get a boyfriend that REALLY loves me for me (of course not a NEED..more like a want.)**
-JOB! lol. when i move downtown.
-be able to maintain myself in fall when i DO move downtown.
-get more female friends. lol. i need those!! right now i chill with ALL guys!


Lately..i've been really good. Family, Friends, Quay, Video Games..you know. lol. in an hour i'll be doing photos for the family. i'm excited. lol. I got to see Joyann and the rest of her fambam yesterday! LAWD they have like 7 people in their family..but they are SO nice..it's always nice to see old friends and such (we know them from when we used to live on Tortola island). 


Last night, we (my brother and i) hung out with Jabari, Derrick, and Mika..Joyce came later..but she really wasn't much of anything. she basically came to fawn all over derrick which i thought was TOTALLY inappropriate in front of my little brother. she has no shame whatsoever. LOL @ them getting up to go fuck in Jabari's room. dirty bitch. Anyway..we had a good time at the movies..my brother liked the movie and seemed to be enjoying himself! It kinda pissed me off when derrick kept on sticking his paws in the popcorn..but after a while he quit and i went to go get a refill for him (my brother) and everything was great. i loved that movie (The National Treasure 2). It was really good. Whomever came up with the plot was such a nerd. lol. SO much history though..i suppose history isn't that bad afterall..however, i always considered american history to be interesting. WORLD history is what really bores the bullshit out of me. anyway..after we came back from the movies we lit firecreackers and just chilled at his house. yerp. nothing special. When we came home..Auntie Jean (another old friend from Tortola) spent the night because it was already like four in the morning. I love her so much! she's cool people..shame what her fucking husband did to her..some men are just NO good. i thank the LORD that i am in the 35% of black families in america that have two parents who love and care for each other..and strangely NEVER EVER fight...ever. never. lol. but anyway..i need to go start getting ready for pictures and such! i'll type later tonight!! 

 xoxo. Breezy H!!

p.s. I am so addicted to super mario galaxy and pokemon diamond! AHHHHH!! 

p.s.s. Happy Birthday to me in two fucking weeks!!