Don't worry about yesterday - what happened, how it happened, or even why it happened. We're living for today, building our future for tomorrow. Let's live life, shall we?! :D

I've been feeling great lately! School is going more than great! The people I have been associating myself with lately are people that have been down to earth and real. I'm through with hanging with people who think they are "the shit" or feel that people should treat them a certain way because they feel they are owed that. That's so annoying and egocentric it's not funny. Anyhowww. I started my Capoeira class yesterday and I'm certainly feeling it today, haha. The class is crazy and Gabrielle and I were struggling a bit but you know what? I love it! Learning another culture is always VERY exciting to me. I have kickboxing tomorrow and I'm pretty excited. ^__^

I know, I know, the amount of times Dimitri is mentioned in a journal entry is significantly dwindling. I hardly talk to him now. Perhaps once every 2-3 days versus what used to be everyday. Eh..I'm not sure if he is truly interested in me as a person, and that's a horrid accusation! But the only times he seems to hit me up is when he is in that mood..if you know what I'm talking about. And I don't think he does it particularly on purpose but whatever. I refuse to care if he refuses to care. Ha..

The amount of time that I've been talking to Jabari is noticably dwindling as well. Which is expected, so i'm not surprised. -shrugs-

The weather is pretty damn crummy and has been crummy since it's hurricane season. So lots and lots of rain. I realized today that I enjoy walking in the rain, I just don't enjoy Diana Ross hair once my hair dries. Haha. But the feeling of the cold rain against my warm skin is actually a feeling I enjoy. And I've been noticing with each passing day, simple pleasures like walking in the rain make me feel happy or alive. I can't really explain it, they just do. And I feel like it's a good thing. =]

Update on my hair..Everyone that's been talking to me lately knows that I've given up relaxers and chemicals in my hair as a whole. I am thinking of getting my hair coloured but perhaps in half a year or so, I want to ween my hair out of all the chemicals as a whole before I even consider going lighter with my hair. I perhaps will colour it like May of next year depending on how the growth of my hair does by then. We'll see. I ordered new curlers, oils, and conditioners trying to really take this seriously.  So yea..

[update]
I want to marry John Legend!!
damn, forreal though..where are all the clean cut successful black men like that? :| x3 

Okay..so i'm supposed to be doing something else so i don't have much time to update but i REALLY wanted to tonight so here we go. 

-Family is doing so well! No fights lately between my father and I which is SO good. i love it! I've been working with my dad lately to do print and web design for clients and that's in the process of blowing up. i love it. I actually have a meeting on friday morning with the founder of one of the businesses my dad does taxes for, a consulting firm. I'm excited!!

-School is doing good! Trying to buckle down and get through this last monthhh! I'm so ready for summer semester! lol. I feel like everything is going smoothly though!

-Freddy: He's still the amazing guy I fell for and continue to fall for nearly two months ago! I've never been so eager to building a future with someone. The one thing that feels so good is i can talk to my mom about it and she so totally supports us so it makes it feel THAT much better. I love how he makes me feel good about myself! He's so supportive and sweet! He makes me feel beautiful and smart and like i'm just enough for him. I usually never feel like I'm enough for anything. If you're reading this, boobie, thank you for making me a better person and I look forward to us. 

-Friends: Not much to say here. Taleesa and I have fully made up now! We're chillin on friday night and I can't wait!

-Etc.: Friday there is a panther prowl at georgia state! I'm so totally going to have fun! ^_^ 

Kyle XY is done for now which is so sad!! Idk when they are launching season 3 but it better be soon!!

Kickboxing has been good, I've been sticking too it, which is fabulous. I'm actually looking into going into fashion modeling this fall. NOT something like print models where all the black women do is show off their asses. I rather go into catwalking and SOME print modeling if necessary but no men's magazines or anything like that. I do NOT want to lingerie model at all.

Well that's everything in a nutshell! I'm supposed to be studying for an American History test! so let me go do that!!

normally i'm not the type of person to even make new year's resolutions because i make my goals as i live my life, i don't need one day on a calendar to tell me when..but i'll list my goals i had prior to this new year's mania..


-maintain a good attitude whether or not what's going on in my life is great
-quit being so damn bratty about everything i have, i'm blessed with more than the average person
-stop settling for less than i expect in a guy
-remain abstinent until in a genuine relationship***
-good grades galore****
-get a boyfriend that REALLY loves me for me (of course not a NEED..more like a want.)**
-JOB! lol. when i move downtown.
-be able to maintain myself in fall when i DO move downtown.
-get more female friends. lol. i need those!! right now i chill with ALL guys!


Lately..i've been really good. Family, Friends, Quay, Video Games..you know. lol. in an hour i'll be doing photos for the family. i'm excited. lol. I got to see Joyann and the rest of her fambam yesterday! LAWD they have like 7 people in their family..but they are SO nice..it's always nice to see old friends and such (we know them from when we used to live on Tortola island). 


Last night, we (my brother and i) hung out with Jabari, Derrick, and Mika..Joyce came later..but she really wasn't much of anything. she basically came to fawn all over derrick which i thought was TOTALLY inappropriate in front of my little brother. she has no shame whatsoever. LOL @ them getting up to go fuck in Jabari's room. dirty bitch. Anyway..we had a good time at the movies..my brother liked the movie and seemed to be enjoying himself! It kinda pissed me off when derrick kept on sticking his paws in the popcorn..but after a while he quit and i went to go get a refill for him (my brother) and everything was great. i loved that movie (The National Treasure 2). It was really good. Whomever came up with the plot was such a nerd. lol. SO much history though..i suppose history isn't that bad afterall..however, i always considered american history to be interesting. WORLD history is what really bores the bullshit out of me. anyway..after we came back from the movies we lit firecreackers and just chilled at his house. yerp. nothing special. When we came home..Auntie Jean (another old friend from Tortola) spent the night because it was already like four in the morning. I love her so much! she's cool people..shame what her fucking husband did to her..some men are just NO good. i thank the LORD that i am in the 35% of black families in america that have two parents who love and care for each other..and strangely NEVER EVER fight...ever. never. lol. but anyway..i need to go start getting ready for pictures and such! i'll type later tonight!! 

 xoxo. Breezy H!!

p.s. I am so addicted to super mario galaxy and pokemon diamond! AHHHHH!! 

p.s.s. Happy Birthday to me in two fucking weeks!!