Damnit..here I go again. It's like 5 o'clock on a Saturday morning and I'm sitting here thinking how LUCKY I am. How  blessed I am. I really don't think I can put into words how much I love my family. I really don't. I would do anything for them, travel to the ends of the earth. They mean so much to me. And I be sure to let them know that everyday. Not every family gets the chance to be as tight knit as we are and I'm so thankful. I hate when I rant about little things not knowing how lucky I am. I can't wait until my father returns in about 12 hours. =) I'm gonna give him a HUGE hug and a kiss letting him know how much I miss him and I appreciate him. I'm so happy that I can realize how lucky I am though. There are some that never realize. I only happen to forget every once in a while. Hehe. Uhm..Updates:

-family is going great as usual. NO fights no squabbles and we are staying as tight knit as ever. My best friendssss. <3
-SCHOOL IS GOING GREAT!!
-Every guy I was involved with romantically before this point in time is history and I will never be revisiting this subject. I'm so serious. I deserve more.
-I have a tinsy tiny crush on someone new. I shalt not reveal his name yet.
-I am so psychedddd for the holiday season!
-Dude..I can't wait until Gabby and I [and whomever else] go to Dialog in the Dark!!
-I'm trying to go to the Cirque du Soleil this January again. I want to pay for my brother as well so I'm trying to save money for GOOD seats for us. Idk if my parents want to go again, but I'll ask.
-I can't wait to go camping next month! Haha. Like..srsly..I'm excited as hell. And..the murder mystery dinner thing for my mom's birthday! It seems all too fun! :D
-I can sit here and ramble on about every single good thing that has been happening in my life..but I won't. Haha. I think I have the gist of it here. I need to shower anyhow. Hehe. -__-

P.s. Operation NO PERM is doing well actually. Not perming my hair is actually making it look better than when it was permed. It looks healthier and shinier. I will dedicate a blog to JUST my hair soon. I will write about the products. =)

Don't worry about yesterday - what happened, how it happened, or even why it happened. We're living for today, building our future for tomorrow. Let's live life, shall we?! :D

I've been feeling great lately! School is going more than great! The people I have been associating myself with lately are people that have been down to earth and real. I'm through with hanging with people who think they are "the shit" or feel that people should treat them a certain way because they feel they are owed that. That's so annoying and egocentric it's not funny. Anyhowww. I started my Capoeira class yesterday and I'm certainly feeling it today, haha. The class is crazy and Gabrielle and I were struggling a bit but you know what? I love it! Learning another culture is always VERY exciting to me. I have kickboxing tomorrow and I'm pretty excited. ^__^

I know, I know, the amount of times Dimitri is mentioned in a journal entry is significantly dwindling. I hardly talk to him now. Perhaps once every 2-3 days versus what used to be everyday. Eh..I'm not sure if he is truly interested in me as a person, and that's a horrid accusation! But the only times he seems to hit me up is when he is in that mood..if you know what I'm talking about. And I don't think he does it particularly on purpose but whatever. I refuse to care if he refuses to care. Ha..

The amount of time that I've been talking to Jabari is noticably dwindling as well. Which is expected, so i'm not surprised. -shrugs-

The weather is pretty damn crummy and has been crummy since it's hurricane season. So lots and lots of rain. I realized today that I enjoy walking in the rain, I just don't enjoy Diana Ross hair once my hair dries. Haha. But the feeling of the cold rain against my warm skin is actually a feeling I enjoy. And I've been noticing with each passing day, simple pleasures like walking in the rain make me feel happy or alive. I can't really explain it, they just do. And I feel like it's a good thing. =]

Update on my hair..Everyone that's been talking to me lately knows that I've given up relaxers and chemicals in my hair as a whole. I am thinking of getting my hair coloured but perhaps in half a year or so, I want to ween my hair out of all the chemicals as a whole before I even consider going lighter with my hair. I perhaps will colour it like May of next year depending on how the growth of my hair does by then. We'll see. I ordered new curlers, oils, and conditioners trying to really take this seriously.  So yea..

[update]
I want to marry John Legend!!
damn, forreal though..where are all the clean cut successful black men like that? :| x3 

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I'm extremely upset, I spent like 30 minutes typing this and now I have to redo it because my computer is fucking retarded. SO HERE GOES A FUCKING GAIN. [/rant]

Hai Guise! I made it to Cali in one pieceee!! I've been enjoying it so far, I've always loved the hustle and bustle of traveling even though it's a pain in the hiney! We went to Victoria Gardens yesterday and it was simply lovely. I love being in the Cali sun. To be quite honest, and this will sound ridiculous or even a tad bit bizarre but the people here talk and dress more like me, so I feel more comfortable here. [Silly, right?] But it's extremely true though. Haha. Uncle made bacon wrapped barbequed hotdogs and regular barbequed hotdogs for dinner, they were delicious. I feel so close to my family right now. We jumped in the spa an hour or two after dinner and we had some interesting convo. Haha. Not sure what we are doing today, I heard there's a barbeque that Uncle is trying to do. [I love his chicken]. I can't wait for Thursday either, we are driving all the way to San Diego and spending the night out there. I'm trying to see my Neekamuffin sometime before then and we said we'd definitely get a chance to hang out! I can't wait!!

Tomorrow I have pictures and a video or two to share, I'll be sure to put those together!


Okay so I did my little hair experiment like I said I would with the Organix Coconut Milk Shampoo & Conditioner and the Organix Coconut Milk Anti-Breakage Serum. Let me tell you, It's only been 2 days since I washed my hair and I've seen results already. When I dried my hair, I noticed it was softer, smoother, less frizzy, and really light [as opposed to heavy, this is not relating to colour]. The serum also added a lovely sheen to my hair which made it look extremely healthy, which is always a good thing. The scents are extremely lovely, smells just like coconut and I love it. They were cost-effective, as well! I got all three for around $6 each. I got mine at CVS but I do know they are available at Walgreens also. Despite the shape of the bottle, you get a lot for what you pay for, they are 13 fl oz each [the shampoo & conditioner]. The serum is like 4 fl oz. I decided to go organic after reading about sulfate in other shampoos [non-organic ones] being horrible for your hair and also weighing it down. Which is horrid. In addition to using no sulfate, this particular scent of organix uses coconut milk, egg whites, and coconut oil and comes in an eco-friendly bottle. So save the earth and your hair by using Organix.

 
Today we went to ULTA, and I was actually telling my aunt about this and it came to mind that I should mention these here. I know what a pain it is for women to find lip glosses that actually keep your lips soft, aren't sticky, and have a nice shine to them. If you have never tried C.O. Bigelow Mentha Lip Shine, I'd TOTALLY recommend it. It's a little expensive [$7.50 sometimes $5] , yes, but it should last you a while unless you ridiculously coat your lips in lipgloss every two seconds. The scents/flavours are lovely, yes, I said flavours, they do have tastes! [Which some guys seem to enjoy for whatever reason]  When you first put it on, you get this lovely cooling/tingly feeling because of the menthol and it feels really good against the winter wind. Unlike most lip glosses, it actually keeps your lips soft as well as glossy and the gloss isn't too thin nor too thick [don't we hate that, ladies?!], it's just right! So head on over to Bath & Body Works and get someeee!! 




Otayyyy! That's all for now, well...not really but i'm SO tired..I'll blog tomorrow!!   [If anyone cares to see me review anything, leave a message, I'd love to do it, or simply if you wonder what I use for everyday items! ]

For the passed couple of years I've used No-Lye relaxer in my hair and lately I've noticed horrid changes in my hair in terms of length and texture [see right for how LONG my hair was]. My hair is getting shorter and shorter and the texture is not where as close to as healthy as it used to be. So I've decided to go natural. So no more no-lye relaxers for my hair. No more chemicals, period. There probably won't even be a difference to other people whether my hair is natural or not, considering the fact that my mom is asian, black, and east indian...my hair is not textured like women who are 100% african american so my hair doesn't fro no matter how much you try to blow dry it. Nor is my hair nappy at all. So, me perming my hair was pretty much pointless. That there is the advantage, if even you want to call it that because I find afros to be adorable. However, because I am mixed, It's hard for me to find products that work well for my type of hair. I can't go with products that are strictly for african americans because 99% of the time the product is too strong for my hair. Then I can't use products made for thinner hair because it's too light. So I really have to do a trial and error thing every time I try to find a new product for my hair.  I've been doing research for the passed couple of days, though and I've found a couple of products that can be deemed worthy of a try. Through several reviews and then I heard Rebekah talk about them in her vlog. 



I promise I'll try these and tell you all what I think of them once I've used them. Every review I've read was either 4.5 stars or 5 stars. I've tried several sites as well so as to not just read the biased ones. I'm excited to see how my hair will respond to these. I'm washing my hair tomorrow to start off my experiment. They're organic based products so I shouldn't have anything to worry about.

 

At this very moment, I'm sitting here waiting for my clay mask to dry. Freeman Avocado & Oatmeal Purifying Clay Masque is simply wonderful. You just apply it to your face [of course avoiding lips and eye areas] and wait for approximately 10-15 minutes then wash off with warm water. SIMPLE! In addition to being simple, the scent is VERY pleasant and it goes on smooth. Most of all, It's inexpensive. I paid about 5 bucks for mine and it's quite a large tube [6 Fl Oz]. I'm not even a huge fan of clay masques but when I did a pageant about two years ago, my stylist recommended it and I've been using it ever since. It gets my skin smooth and works pretty well with purging out pores. I wouldn't recommend it for acne so much but if you are looking for a mask to take care of your pores, this would be it. I give it two thumbs up for scent, cost-effectiveness, as well as functionality.



Okay..onto life matters, I'm finishing up school in which I'm super damn excited for! Tomorrow I'll be in cali, in fact around this time [8:04] I'll be at the airport going through security and such. [You know how the airport is. ] As far as school goes, I'll be getting two A's as far as I know. Sociology..I should get a high B in, which is good enough for me. Haha. That class was pretty hard to me. And it really sucked.  Well I'm not going to say that. The work load was pretty sucky though. Haha. I didn't even start packing for my vacation as yet! Oh my, I have so much do to tomorrow. School, washing my hair, as well as packing! I have quite the workload cut out for me.  I'll get through it though, especially since my reward is lovely cali! Tehe! Let's see, my lovelife is still sucking to be quite frank. I recently found Cyrus on facebook. Cyrus is a guy I met about a year and a half ago at a party in high school. I always thought he was cute but didn't approach for two reasons. A. I thought he wouldn't be my type. and B. Taleesa was crushing and we were close at that point in time. Both of those things don't matter anymore for the simple fact that Cyrus is more of my type than I thought and Taleesa and I aren't really close friends like that anymore, which kind of sucks..but yeah. I'm not sure if he's feeling me back or if he's putting up with me just to be friendly. Lol. We are supposed to hang out when I come back from Cali and I'm uber stoked for that. I hope everything goes smoothly! [I'll keep you guys updated!] He's an intriguing person though, he's vegan and a video game nerd like I am! He doesn't smoke or drink [what a relief!] and he shares my believes when it comes to family and 'sex' [how taboo to talk about when you're first getting to know a person, but yea..i went there. AND WHAT?! lol!]. I'm not going to say I'm crushing on him, it's too soon for that, however he does spark my interest. He's an interesting individual and I want to get to know him better, yes. Anyhow, family relations are going well of course. Everyone is getting along and we'll be even closer when we come back from this vacation. I know we will. I love them all so much.  I'm about to go shower and wash this masque off of my face though. It's been entirely too long. I'll update tonight or tomorrow, whenever I feel like I have something to say!

That's what I feel like though. An emotional pingpong ball. i don't know what to believe or what to feel and being indecisive drives me banana sandwich about situations.  I think I'm slowly driving myself crazy. I feel like I'm loving way harder than what's being returned. Which is a horrid feeling. I keep on trying to calm myself down, but that's not working. I'm going to start to prep myself to not be so damn clingy, in case we don't end up working out, so my world won't come crashing down like the first and second time.  Ugh..I'm trying to leave the subject alone.


There's not much of an update for today. Just mainly homework and i watched Love Don't Cost A Thing twice and Hair Show once. Basically just chilling, watching tv, and homework.  My cold feels like it's getting a little better, i guess..Tonight i plan on washing my hair and working on this little editing project experiment thingy i've been thinking about, i'll post the final thing when i'm done. It's still in the brainstorming stages. Well there's not much more than that to say..


P.s. I'll be working on a new layout soon. After i get off my lazy rump!


xoxo. Breezy H. 

 
EDIT// I'm fucking crying again.